The cough inside my lungs

Tonight, I had two slices of microwaved pizza with my computer to my left, my work in front, and a cracked organ to my right. I realize that many of my friends are screwed over right now. I don't know that any of them are remotely okay. I can count the states where everyone's curled up like babies, like soup spoons. And I'm here. I think I'm okay. At least I'm sitting upright.

It doesn't do to be eloquent. A week ago a new friend told me that I'm intimidating. Maybe because I'm a hypocrite. That's why I moved, if you want the truth. I'm tired of being an intimidating hypocrite. Two nights ago I said something that I wanted to take back, but now I'm glad that I said it, because it shows how callous and thoughtless I am even if everyone laughed and I cried inside. I'm callous and thoughtless, so stop being intimidated by me. We're all a little lonely, so say what you think.

The govt blocked my emails. None of them ever got my replies, because I said too much once and he told the truth. My stomach did a triple flip and landed on my feet after I saw the error messages. And then I dialed a missionary who told me that things are going to be okay. I just need to use a new email address. No one was going to get arrestd anyway.

I believe in God, the Father Almighty, maker of heaven and earth, and in Jesus Christ, his only Son, our Lord; who was conceived by the Holy Spirit, born of the virgin Mary, suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, dead and buried. He descended into hell; the third day he arose again from the dead; he ascended into heaven, and is seated on the right hand of God the Father Almighty; from there he shall come to judge the living and the dead. I believe in the Holy Spirit; the holy catholic church, the communion of saints, the forgiveness of sins, the resurrection of the body, and the life everlasting.

There is the gospel.